My life, now..

Wow.. Its been long since my last spill... Gosh i cant believe myself.. How time past and all... And now.. I frel much better.. But of course i do feel sad n missing sumthing.. Raya without him wishing me... And exams without him asking for my doa... I miss him badly, but seriously.. I dont need him in my life.. He isnt for me.. And if he is my pair as in loh mahfuz, i will accept him as as my husband.. But as for now, let me live my life.. As a real muslimah.. Seeking your blessings, Ya Rabb.. I am sad, but i will face this reality wif open heart.. Pls bless me wif clear heart and willingness in accepting your qada' and qadar Ya Rabb.. If i meet my future husband, pls let him love me because of you, Ya Rabb.. And pls reward me a husband.. As in my doa... Aaamiiinnn