A month and 4 days

aduhai, life had been very challenging already now i dunno if i can tahan this but i guess i hav to adjust and make sure i am in charge of my feelings

My thoughts is very dangerous now i know i have to master the secret to make this all successful. if i want him, i hav to work it out. i hav to find my way but let it happen naturally. it seems like i am trying hard already now.

this shouldnt b the way. i shouldnt try, i should do it. but i know what type of guy he is. the guy i'm in love wif... but wif many good and bad qualities in him.

kenapalah aku nda buli pasrah, terima semua keadaan ne dgn tabah n kuat. aku syg padanya, tp kenapakah aku nda boleh biar dia bebas terbang? kenapakah aku maw kongkong dia? bukan berniat maw mengongkong dia, tp perlakuan dia tuh mmg susah d tafsir. btol kata elfie, btol kata nisha. tp tindakan dia memberitahu semua ahli keluarga dia abt dia maw kawen dgn syg tuh mmg btol2 mengejutkan. and bila dia mula safe utk our wedding mmg btol2 buat sy terharu. berapa tahankah sy dgn keadaan ini?

ya ALLAH berikanlah aku petunuk dan hidayah utk membuat keputusan... utk tinggalkn dia mmg sakit, but untuk bersama dia mmg sy mahu. tp bila mana sy tidak boeh bebas lepas dgn dia, agak payah. kadang kala dia so sweet, but kadang kaa dia sgt menyakitkan hati. bahaya keadaan ini...